Working My Problem

I have been given what appears to be the most accurate diagnosis to date. Borderline personality disorder (BPD) co-morbid with Bipolar Disorder II.

That’s a lot to deal with right thar. However, knowing what a problem is gives one the ability to plan for challenges and opportunities that may arise.

My personal goals for the week, as defined by Therapist, are simple.

That is, admittedly, a very difficult assignment.

The other assignment:

Sister put things pretty well, “You’re in a panic over things and have been for months. That creates an environment in which you cannot think cleat and you end up making poor decisions.”

I hadn’t realized I had been panicking for months. I see it now though.

I had been convinced that My Bride was leaving me. Being terrified of abandonment is A#1 on my list of fears. The more she rejected me (spend time with me…) the more panic was created.

I have been in a panic snowball for more than 4 months.

This separation is actually a godsend! It sucks, but we needed it.

It has become time for me to let that snowball melt off and relax. I just pray she is able to see this for what it has been and can allow herself to be close to me again.

About MyJourney

I'm a 41 year old married father of 3. I am a sex addict. This blog is to document my progress, recovery and marital growth. Pornography is an evil creation. Let my experiences serve as a warning to all.
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