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Category Archives: Discovery
A Map With Directions
Funny how things work out when you identify the problem. Attitudes change. Smiles erupt from faces a little more easily. If not smiles, the frown that was constant was replaced with a neutral look. When I sent My Wife the … Continue reading
Posted in Discovery, Gratefulness, Marriage Issues, Progress, Recovery, Relationship
Tagged healing, marriage, progress
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30 Day Challenge Day 8…
Day 8 A Place You Have Traveled To this gets fucking deep We took our kids on a vacation to the Gulf of Mexico about 10 years ago. What stands out about this trip is happiness. As we drove from … Continue reading
Posted in Challenge, Coming clean, Depression, Discovery, emotion, Lost, Mental Illness
Tagged end my pain, pain
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On The Clock
I sent word, via text, to My Bride that I have given myself the arbitrary deadline of October 31 to see some sort of improvement or I will leave her. If I cannot see some improvement, no matter how small, … Continue reading
Posted in Amends, Discovery, Marriage Issues, Mental Health, Mental Illness
Tagged bipolar, BPD, marriage
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Not Her Fault, I’m Near My End
I cannot come close to beginning ANY of the skills or techniques I’m supposed to be working on. I’m incredibly worked up and pissed off. There are times that I’m seized with anger while others I’m frozen by sorrow and … Continue reading
Posted in Discovery, emotion, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Relationship
Tagged BPD, decent, falling Apart
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Keeping Score And Seeing Other’s Problems
This guy emailed his wife a spreadsheet of all the times she turned him down for sex AND her reasons why over a 7 week period. SHE posted it to reddit. That link takes you to a stupid video in … Continue reading
Posted in Discovery, Gratefulness, Healing, Marriage Issues
Tagged keeping score, success rate
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Exploiting The Pained
For months, NAY, over a year, I read blogs and articles about healing my marriage and healing myself. I’ve read countless posts from well meaning people, who, probably have excellent advice for the segment of people that fit their specific … Continue reading
Why 12 Step Will NOT Work For Me
Recovery Group Formula • Sit around table • Introduce yourself! • Give name to your disease and how long you’ve been in recovery from it. • Go round the table taking turns reading from the holy book of recovery literature. … Continue reading
Posted in Discovery, Healing, Mental Illness, Recovery
Tagged 12 step, Borderline, BPD, porn addiction
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The Recovery That Wasn’t There
I THOUGHT I had hit “true recovery” in May through mid July. What I had actually received was a spiritual experience alongside a family experience at home. My “recovery” group stuff was the same old thing. I was still half-assing … Continue reading
Posted in Agony, Discovery, emotion, Healing, Marriage Issues, Mental Health, Recovery, Relationship
Tagged addiction, depression, marriage, recovery
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Don’t Post Tired
Maybe I shouldn’t write as I’m forcing myself to stay awake. Whence last I wrote I was shaking my head, pinching myself and slapping my legs so I could write what was on my mind. The Problem I Encounter whenever … Continue reading
Pain To Chill
My Bride and I had a tough conversation last night. Things had gotten to the point where I couldn’t talk to her for fear of sparking an argument. It seemed anytime I tried to have any kind if conversation beyond, … Continue reading
My Journey Through Sex Addiction 