Monthly Archives: April 2014

50-50…Nope

What a great sentiment. Sadly, I have been giving MAYBE 50% to my marriage. Hell, that was probably on my best days. Normally, I’d say My Bride gave 100% and I gave nothing but sure withdrew a lot. After disclosure … Continue reading

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Temptation

• Spiritual renewal • Respectful conversation with MB • Positive interaction with MB • Positive outlook • Embracing forgiveness These are all new occurrences. As in, 2 days ago I would have sneered at you had you told me this … Continue reading

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Lessons Learned

I am beginning to see truth in my life. I am NOT worthless I am NOT a failure I am NOT a loser I am NOT a pervert I am NOT unloveable I am NOT a freak I am NOT … Continue reading

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Do Not Take It Easy

Make sure you don’t try and use your blog as your actions. -My Bride THAT, gentle readers, is a brilliant statement. We had been discussing my mental transformation. “If our kiss and I love you interaction would have happened last … Continue reading

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What Porn Addiction Is Like

THAT is EXACTLY what porn addiction is. It’s your precious. Even as you’re being pulled to your absolute doom, you are delighted in its presence. Happy to be with it. Living every moment through the “joys” it brings to you. … Continue reading

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I Met God Last Night

My Bride sat on the couch, listening intently, as I told of the incredible spiritual experience I had just encountered. There were no questions. There were no reactions. She just sat and listened. We didn’t speak again the rest of … Continue reading

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A Chance At Innocence

My Bride and I began sexual intercourse on March 5, 1991. It was nice. When I say nice, I mean fun. The best thing ever. What that should feel like. We had pretty sweet heavy activity before completing the union … Continue reading

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