Monthly Archives: May 2014

Screw It, I’m Doing My Thing

I made my decision. I’m going to continue blogging. When I see her next I’m going to ask My Bride to not read it anymore. I believe that is the only true solution that is fair to the both of … Continue reading

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To End Or Not?

I began this blog on November 15, 2013. My first entry was a veiled story about being molested as a child. That one post started me down a very painful road. The morning after, the conversation brought on by the … Continue reading

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The Pain Is Too Much Now

The first 2 weeks of separation were magical. I just knew things were progressing and getting better. At the end of the week we shared intimacy on 2 separate days. Then it changed. A few hours after our last intimate … Continue reading

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Not Good Enough

She canceled our date. Do you really think I’m a dictator? We had a text fight because of my blog. I was really looking forward to this, but then I read your blog. Instant mood change. I don’t fucking understand. … Continue reading

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Facepalm, Thanks

“It is the process itself that leads to healing. The very experiences of being patient, having self-doubt, wondering what else tou have to go through, going through copious amounts of time thinking and going through exercises that seem pointless are … Continue reading

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The Anxious Date

I have a date with My Bride this evening. She planned the dinner part and I’ve got the entertainment learning from some mistakes of my past, I ran a few things by her. I suggested one of those pizza places … Continue reading

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Alone And Cool Wit It

I’ve spent 95% of my day alone. Interestingly enough, I didn’t care. This is some kind of epic event. Generally if I’m by myself for more than am hour I have a crushing feeling of loneliness. Not so today. I … Continue reading

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Gratefulness 5-30-2014

Today I am grateful for 1. My Bride 2. My children 3. Humor 4. Kisses 5. My bulldog 6. Cute smiles 7. Double entendre 8. Dirty jokes 9. 80’s music 10. Bacon I find it interesting how I can yo-yo … Continue reading

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No Pain No Gain

What an odd day. I spent almost my entire day working on my spiritual/moral inventory for step 4. For those of you who have not done this or are unfamiliar with the steps, the fourth step is to “Make a … Continue reading

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