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Monthly Archives: November 2013
Giving Up All Hope
“Forgiveness means giving up all hope for a better past.” -Lilly Tomlin I have serious anger issues that have recently surfaced. Most pressing, in my mind, is with my father-in-law. There are two reasons that I find this specific issue … Continue reading
Family Discomfort
It’s an incredibly awkward day. We’re at her parents house for Thanksgiving festivities. There are a few problems associated with this: 1. I don’t exactly get along well with my father-in-law. Our relationship has been strained for awhile now. 2. … Continue reading
Rough night and more pain
‘Twas a rough end to the night. It had been a tough day for both of us. I had spent the previous night acting out for quite some time, leading to about 2 hours of sleep. She had a really … Continue reading
Apprehension and Sanguinity
I guess my apprehension was unwarranted. I had a pretty decent session. I had intended on bringing up all of the thoughts clamoring through my mind. Constant reminders of the abuses, my acting out, my guilt etc… I forgot. The … Continue reading
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The Monsters
My next therapy session begins in less than 30 minutes. I’m nervous. I don’t know why. I absolutely love these sessions. I look forward to them. I actually get excited. Not today. Maybe this is foreshadowing a difficult hour upcoming. … Continue reading
Day by day
I could never figure out why knowing the truth about God never set me free. Or the truth about psychology or the Twelve Step program. But when I finally came to the place where I saw the truth about me-and … Continue reading
The Long And Trusting Road
I knew she needed space. Rather, I knew she had said it before. I just don’t realize when she needs it. In her first therapy session she was told that we need to set limits on how much we talk … Continue reading
God Got Involved
The last 7 days have been magical. My bride has reacted quite unconventionally to my admission of infidelity and sexual grossities. Instead of attacking she had been loving. Instead of hostility she has given peace. Instead of estrangement she has … Continue reading
I will do anything
I have no clue. Last night I wrote about not looking forward to going to bed with her. Why? Because I REALLY wanted sex. How is that a problem? We had sex a couple of nights before. What’s the problem … Continue reading
This Is Gonna Suck
We slowed down today. I suppose I should have expected that. We spent very little time together. The time we did spend was…ok. She had quite a few things to accomplish so the distance was expected. We have been doing … Continue reading
My Journey Through Sex Addiction 