Monthly Archives: November 2013

Giving Up All Hope

“Forgiveness means giving up all hope for a better past.” -Lilly Tomlin I have serious anger issues that have recently surfaced. Most pressing, in my mind, is with my father-in-law. There are two reasons that I find this specific issue … Continue reading

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Family Discomfort

It’s an incredibly awkward day. We’re at her parents house for Thanksgiving festivities. There are a few problems associated with this: 1. I don’t exactly get along well with my father-in-law. Our relationship has been strained for awhile now. 2. … Continue reading

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Rough night and more pain

‘Twas a rough end to the night. It had been a tough day for both of us. I had spent the previous night acting out for quite some time, leading to about 2 hours of sleep. She had a really … Continue reading

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Apprehension and Sanguinity

I guess my apprehension was unwarranted. I had a pretty decent session. I had intended on bringing up all of the thoughts clamoring through my mind. Constant reminders of the abuses, my acting out, my guilt etc… I forgot. The … Continue reading

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The Monsters

My next therapy session begins in less than 30 minutes. I’m nervous. I don’t know why. I absolutely love these sessions. I look forward to them. I actually get excited. Not today. Maybe this is foreshadowing a difficult hour upcoming. … Continue reading

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Day by day

I could never figure out why knowing the truth about God never set me free. Or the truth about psychology or the Twelve Step program. But when I finally came to the place where I saw the truth about me-and … Continue reading

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The Long And Trusting Road

I knew she needed space. Rather, I knew she had said it before. I just don’t realize when she needs it. In her first therapy session she was told that we need to set limits on how much we talk … Continue reading

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