Here’s a great quite from a buddy’s blog:
Our journey is not just one where we reach out to God in our desperation, but one where God reached for us first and brought us to desperation for Him! This is a dance and God is in the lead. So have hope, you are in a dance with a God who is “rich in mercy.” God is not shocked by your sin.
I’m not going to bullshit you and say I’ve let God lead me in this dance. I haven’t. I want to, I just don’t know how.
I will say that I am more than aware that God is “rich in mercy” and I want, desperately, to have His riches bestowed upon me. I NEED His mercy. My bride NEEDS His mercy. Our marriage is in desperate need for His mercy.
I take solace in this: God is not shocked by my sin.
I’m not the first guy to let himself be pulled into the darkness and evil that is pornography and I won’t be the last. But I sure will be the first person I know to say: “ENOUGH! I’ve let other things be my god. This will not stand. God, almighty, I submit myself to you. I submit my family to you. I submit my marriage to you. These are all yours. Use us, guide us and show us how to glorify you with our service to each other.”
PRAISE GOD that He has heard this before. PRAISE God that His mercy will cover even my terrible sins. PRAISE God that He will forgive my sins. PRAISE God he will carry me through recovery. PRAISE God He will heal my wife. PRAISE God He will rebuild my marriage.
PRAISE God for providing me with such a special bride.
I can (should) do more, but I think the point has been made. Only through the grace and mercy of God will I be able to survive. Only through God’s grace and mercy will my wife receive the healing she needs. And only through God’s mercy and grace will my marriage be healed and rebuilt anew.
God is truly great.