I have a prayer for those of us that are ensnared by an addiction to pornography.
Restore us, God Almighty; make your face shine on us, that we may be saved. (Psalm 80:7 NIV)
For My Bride,
For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. (Romans 8:18)
The miracle you are awaiting is just around the corner. Get ready, because God is fixing to reveal it to you.
It’s incredible to me how deeply I have come to trust in God over the past week.
For a very long time I thought God had abandoned me. God didn’t leave me, he had just let me wander away for a long time. But he never abandoned me. Now He has swept me into His arms and He is carrying me to recovery.
These days of our separation are hard, exquisitely so at times.
But I am still a husband, her husband. And she still wants me, amazingly. I am still a father. My sons still love me. I am still willing to do anything with my whole being to fight for my family.
I am the same man who did those despicable things, but at the same time, I’m a totally new man. I am a living example of the grace of God.
I was a man in a ditch caught in the sicknesses of addiction and acting out. I was at the absolute bottom of despair when God gave me grace as He spoke directly to my soul and said go and sin no more. That’s the journey I’m on now.
God saved me and now He calls me
Those are new names I was never able to answer to. God’s saving grace allows me to claim those names now.
Some who read this blog will find me despicable. I understand if you do. I have provided plenty of ammunition to support that.
Maybe you don’t though. Maybe you see some of you in my journey. Hopefully you can learn from the mistakes I document.
Perhaps you’re reading this for a purpose.
Perhaps you find joy in knowing that one more person has become a new creation in Christ.
Perhaps you share my story and need just a little push to get the help you need and my story serves as a warning for you to turn and get that help.
Perhaps you can see what God’s grace looks like and understand it a little better.
Perhaps you recognize a change in me and you think you can change if I can.
There’s one thing I do know. It’s only by the grace of God that I’m where I am now.
Father God, thank you for moving in such a way I can grow in you and become sensitive to your call.