I JUST read another dude’s blog. He made the greatest point I Ever read concerning depression.
Have you ever felt so comfortable – so at ease in your state of depression that it no longer felt depressing anymore?
That is powerful.
I am in that exact place.
It was precisely a year ago I was hospitalized for depression. Since that time I’ve gone from bottomed out to average to attempted suicide back to average and right back to near bottom. The last few days I have come up a bit, and I mean a bit.
This goes back to my post earlier. People without depression cannot relate in any way. They think we can think our way out of depression.
This guy gets it.
He’s clearly in a similar place.
Depression sucks.
Bipolar sucks ass.
Addiction sucks.
Porn sucks.
Being a bipolar, porn and sex addict sucks balls.
Think your way out of that.
Those of you in a similar place, God bless you. I hope you have some kind of support network around you. That is something I do not have. I tried once and I literally hated the people around me. I had a sponsor and I couldn’t stand him. He talked down to me and was less than supportive.
I fired him and stopped going to SA meetings. I’ve started Celebrate Recovery. It’s a much better experience. I still haven’t built a support network. That needs to change.
I know that I’m going to have to bust out of depression, somehow, and make those connections.
A support network has been the best thing ever for me.
I deal with mental health issues too – not the kind of bipolar you’re handling, but I’m maybe on meds for the long term. I know how hard it is to take care of myself. It’s daunting if I look at the big picture, so I break things up in small, doable pieces. Then I rest. Then I do something else. Maybe in an hour. Maybe the next day… Sometimes just doing one small thing can seem tough when we’re struggling. But it’s worth it to try. 🙂