Tag Archives: pain

I Don’t Want To

“You have the solution to my problem. You can pull me out of this mess by yourself. You are the only person on earth that can help me. All you need to do is provide me with a physical relationship. … Continue reading

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30 Day Challenge Day 8…

Day 8 A Place You Have Traveled To this gets fucking deep We took our kids on a vacation to the Gulf of Mexico about 10 years ago. What stands out about this trip is happiness. As we drove from … Continue reading

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The Back Hand Of Amends

We live on a farm in Oklahoma. It was founded during the land run and our house is the original structure, built in 1904. It’s old. My Bride’s 88 year old great-grandfather (step) lives across the street. His step-son is … Continue reading

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How Can Someone Love Me?

I am a child of God. I am created in His image. Irrespective of what I do, I will always be lived by God. Nothing I say, think or do can ever change that. Something went wrong when I was … Continue reading

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To End Or Not?

I began this blog on November 15, 2013. My first entry was a veiled story about being molested as a child. That one post started me down a very painful road. The morning after, the conversation brought on by the … Continue reading

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The Pain Is Too Much Now

The first 2 weeks of separation were magical. I just knew things were progressing and getting better. At the end of the week we shared intimacy on 2 separate days. Then it changed. A few hours after our last intimate … Continue reading

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No Pain No Gain

What an odd day. I spent almost my entire day working on my spiritual/moral inventory for step 4. For those of you who have not done this or are unfamiliar with the steps, the fourth step is to “Make a … Continue reading

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