No Emotion As I Moved Today

I moved out if my brother’s apartment today. I wasn’t emotional like I thought I would be. I simply packed up my things, cleaned up, made the bed and took off. The drive was I eventful too. Weeks ago, when I had been banished from my home, the very act of driving was difficult. I had a difficult time focusing on anything besides my emotions. I’m a different man today.

I got to the house and quickly unloaded my car. I wanted to get that crap in the house ASAP. I put all the food I had bright with me in the fridge and collapsed into the recliner.

I had hoped to work on my sewing today. I pulled out the horrific practice experiment and got to work. I was incredibly tired and hungry. I grabbed an orange and tore into it. Moments later I must have fallen asleep.

My Bride came in, wearing one of those outfits I dig so much. Some kind of white top with little black things on it, long black gloves and thigh-highs with those suspender things. Ho-Lee Cripes!! She’s so incredibly beautiful. Her long brown hair with the blonde highlights has been arranged just so. That little outfit shows off 2 of my favorite assets in the most PERFECT way. She’s wearing these shoes, incredibly sexy high heels. She’s never worn heels for me before. The make up, perfume and hair, her smile, her eyes…it’s her! Everything is perfect. She approaches me with a mischievous grin on her face. When she reaches me, the kiss, it’s the most passionate kiss I’ve ever had. She takes me by the hand and leads me to our bed. Grabbing me by the back if the head, she looks at me and says…

My mother woke me up. I must have fallen asleep right after I moved my junk in from my car.

Sigh…

We were supposed to hang out tonight. Last week I invited her to the church group I go to. I really don’t want to go to something like that yet. Why don’t we move our hang out night to Thursday so you don’t have to miss it? A completely sensible plan and I’m totally cool with it.

There have been a couple of interesting developments. Last Sunday, My Bride told me that we’d see how she does with loneliness soon. Her sister was having surgery this week. That surgery was yesterday.

Yesterday, I did not establish contact with her until 8PM. All contacts before were started by her. In fact, she called me. THAT is highly unusual. Today I haven’t established any contact at all. She contacted me this morning. Not only that, but her texting sounded like mine. It was as if she was saying anything to keep me talking.

I’m not saying she’s cracking under the loneliness of 2 days. I am recognizing a massive change in 2 days. I don’t know to what it should be attributed; chance, personal growth, loneliness or random occurrence. I dunno.

It has been a tremendous week thus far. I’m looking forward to building on this.

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About MyJourney

I'm a 41 year old married father of 3. I am a sex addict. This blog is to document my progress, recovery and marital growth. Pornography is an evil creation. Let my experiences serve as a warning to all.
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