Acceptance, Needs And Surrender

Just 11 days ago I completely relied on My Bride for almost everything. Friendship, comfort, joy, understanding, stability and love are but a few examples. It took getting kicked out of our home to learn a valuable lesson.

You don’t really need someone to complete you. You only need someone to accept you completely.

My Bride is that someone. I believe that she does, in fact, complete me. She is strong where I am weak and I am strong where she is weak. The greatest thing about her- she accepts me for who I am.

I was a different man in 1992 when we married. I became more and more different over the years. When I made my disclosure 6 months ago, I had become a stranger to her. We began reconnecting, but I took a fast trip to unchecked mental illness town and became a completely other person. Now that we are apart, I am becoming a totally different person again. This time, however, it’s the man she has always wanted.

That man has ways been within me. It seems I was afraid to let him out. God has soothed my fears and prepared my way. God has begun the work in my life that I’ve needed my entire life. I don’t know why, but God decided that this work would begin as my marriage reached the precipice of destruction.

I have reached a new part of my life. God is now involved, I finally realized that running from Him is the path to death. God wants happiness and success for His children. I had been wallowing in confusion, pain and misery. God does not create those feelings. I had to face the end of everything I hold dear in life to FINALLY turn to Him.

Father God, I praise you! Thank you for loving and setting me free!

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About MyJourney

I'm a 41 year old married father of 3. I am a sex addict. This blog is to document my progress, recovery and marital growth. Pornography is an evil creation. Let my experiences serve as a warning to all.
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