My Bride has bristled at my intimate advances for years. Obviously, our current situation is not included in this analysis. Prior to my disclosure exactly 6 months ago, she routinely denied my advances. Not just sexually, but non-sexual advances as well.

Intimacy in our marriage died over the period of many years. The first reason, porn addiction, is the easiest to diagnose. You could say I’ve written about it a time or two on this here of. The other reason, as I see it anyway, is a bit more complicated.

When My Bride and I had dated, I put in tons of effort. I wooed her. There were gifts, surprises, constant attention and I would have done ANYTHING to make her happy. Then we got married, I won, she was mine. The game was over and I won my prize. Over time, the amount of effort I had put in waned. Eventually she was receiving, at BEST, minimal attention from me. She still desired those things. She wanted to be desired, chased and seduced and connected with just as much as she had before.

In short, I became complacent.

Was that the biggest issue?
Not by a long shot. The porn usage and coverups were are much greater issue. Complacency was a big deal too though. In fact, one could easily make the case that porn was just another form of complacency.

I will not take My Bride for granted again. Our relationship is far too valuable.

About MyJourney

I'm a 41 year old married father of 3. I am a sex addict. This blog is to document my progress, recovery and marital growth. Pornography is an evil creation. Let my experiences serve as a warning to all.
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3 Responses to Pursue

  1. Thank you for shedding light on this. This is truly something we all need to be mindful of in our relationships. We have to continue to date after we get married and have children. A lot of people say that their kids come first when in fact the bible says your spouse comes first (Matthew 6:33). There is a lot more to be said on this topic in the bible. Here’s a post written on it some time back, if you are interested in reading what I found: http://kerrichronicles.com/the-ten-commandments-of-marriage/

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