Surprise, Change In Plan And Responsibility

“The most powerful thing you can pray over your wife, when she is unaware of your prayer, is Proverbs 31.”

I am poorly trained in The Bible. I have always been embarrassed of that as I become the spiritual leader if my family. Therefore, I look externally for guidance. The following is what had been recommended I pray over My Bride.

A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies. Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value. She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life. She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands. She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar. She gets up while it is still night; she provides food for her family and portions for her female servants. She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard. She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks. She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night. In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers. She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy. When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet. She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple. Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land. She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes. She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her: “Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.” Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. Honor her for all that her hands have done, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate. (Proverbs 31:10-31 NIV)

I have prayed that several times over her this morning. Today is her graduation with her masters degree. I sent her a text citing the scripture. Almost immediately she responded, Always been my goal.
“It’s you already.”
Maybe some, inconsistent at best.
“Keep chasing it, it’s never over.”

I let her know that it became my prayer for her as soon as I became aware if it.

She asked what I was doing.
“Prayer reading and becoming who I need to be with more prayer” and that is true. I have been praying, reading and working on me. I’m also sitting next to my kids at My Bride’s graduation.

I made these plans last night. I knew I was coming all day. I just didn’t want My Bride to know. I asked my oldest son to save me a seat and told him no matter what he heard, I was going to be there. “Ok, dad. Thanks for coming.

I was SUPPOSED to sit with my kids, In-Laws and Sister2. I WAS going to watch her go, take pictures from afar and leave before she knew I was even here. I had even set it up with FIL last night.

Things have changed.
In-Laws didn’t come. The youngest 2 are here but oldest is helping his girlfriend with her car at the last minute. Sister2 looks PISSED that I’m here.

Too bad, chica. That’s My Bride out there. I’m here and I’m making the most of it.

Since her parents are not here, I feel responsible for leading us in showing her the support of our. She’s going to find out I’m here. I have to blow off my plans since In-Laws didn’t show up.

I will meet her on the field along with our children. I’ll take pictures and show my support.

It’s possible she breaks down in tears. That is not and was not my intent.

It’s possible that she’s happy to see me too.

As they were on their way, I asked Son3 how mom was.
“She’s happy and she looks great.”

I pray that we have a beautiful interaction. I pray this is healthy. I pray we show some form, even the slightest amount, of joy together.

Baby Doll, you’ve come a long way. The world is yours to conquer. Together, with God leading us, we will show the glory of God to others.

I am so proud of you!!

About MyJourney

I'm a 41 year old married father of 3. I am a sex addict. This blog is to document my progress, recovery and marital growth. Pornography is an evil creation. Let my experiences serve as a warning to all.
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4 Responses to Surprise, Change In Plan And Responsibility

  1. Brother, I will be praying. I feel you are making a mistake on this one. I fear that your presence will only make her hurt as you said you would not go, therefore breaking your word. I pray I am ever so wrong!
    And I also know that this a personal comment on your journey, but God has told me to be there for you. I don’t know why but He has and so therefore I must whether in prayer or spoken word.

    • MyJourney says:

      It went very well!!! She saw me taking pictures when my boys called out to her. When we met up she said she was glad I came! As everyone else went to find their cars, I asked if I could go with her to pick up her degree. SHE SAID YES!!!

      She jumped in my car and we went to see our son’s house for this fall (he’s a football player at the same university). We talked. Some serious, some simple.

      She asked if we could go and eat somewhere cheap when we left. I WAS INVITED!!! She rode in my car for the hour long drive. Simple talk, serious talk. When it became obvuoys we needed to stop the seriousness, I was able to change subjects.

      We had a nice lunch as a family. Husband, wife and kids. It was beautiful.

    • MyJourney says:

      I thank God for assigning you to me for however long she sees fit!!

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