I hooked up with a new therapist today. She was excellent. I told my story, as best as I could, from beginning to end. She just listened. After I had finished she asked a question or two. That would get me talking more. There were a couple of times that I saw her eyes water up a bit. That moved me.
She told me pretty standard stuff.
• You have got to focus on you
never heard that before…
• You have to stop brooding over this
Then I received something new. She gave me homework.
Your homework is, I’m giving you no homework. I would tell you to relax, but I think that might just make you mad. If you were able to relax, we wouldn’t be sitting here together.
Instead, I want you to focus on the here and now. Caring for yourself. Just the basics. What am I going to eat, when will I sleep.
She asked what I perceived as my biggest need in recovery was. I told her dealing with my childhood traumas. “I can’t forgive myself until I realize I’m a good person. To do that I have to deal with the abuse.”
I feel like I accomplished more in that hour than I have in 8 months with The Good Doctor.
She told me that I cannot make my changes because I want to get back together with My Bride. That’s not good enough and it will just cause resentment.
You work on you
Let My Bride work on her.
God will do His will in our lives.
I just happen to believe, along with many others, that we are destined to excel as a married team. We are going to minister to others.
Do your work, boy. She needs to see you’re serious now.