Up Down And All Around

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There are no truer words.

My Bride and I had a successful day today. She sat next to me during our family Easter time. She held my hand today. She let me rub her leg and her arm. Last night she caressed my back.

I want more.
I’m not ashamed to say it either.
I’ve experienced the sheer joy of happiness and love. I’ve experienced the depths of depression, knowing she has disdain for me and that she rejects my love and intimacy. I’ve experienced everything in between.

There are extreme highs and lows in my marriage right now.

Sometimes I have no doubt My Bride has strong feelings of love and affection for me. There are times that I doubt that she even likes me as a human.

There are brief moments of affection. Some of the time I feel she only wants me around out of habit. There are many times I think she has no desire to ever be with me again.

That’s when I relate to that picture above.

But then I realize we are rebuilding. We are making progress and cannot fail.

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When I accept our progress as reality, I understand that we can’t be stopped.

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About MyJourney

I'm a 41 year old married father of 3. I am a sex addict. This blog is to document my progress, recovery and marital growth. Pornography is an evil creation. Let my experiences serve as a warning to all.
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