I MUST apologize to My Bride. I had mentioned giving up many times. I shall never do it again.
My Bride is the one thing on earth that makes me want to be a good man. She is the only person on earth I could ever change for.
She is my light and my soul.
She is the reason I get up every day.
I will never give up on our marriage.
Though I may become frustrated and over-emotional, I vow to never again mention giving up. That is not a solution. It is becoming defeated.
I have allowed myself to be defined by my past. I have allowed failure, self-doubt and self-destructive thoughts rule over me for too long.
On this day, I vow to conquer depression. I will defeat failure.
I will beat addiction.
I will become the man Almighty God has intended me to be.
I will become the man My a Bride needs and deserves.
I will not rest until I have achieved these goals.
Only death can stop me now.
Depression, abuse, addiction, self-doubt, self-hate and destructive thoughts- fuck off.
You are no longer welcomed in my life.
My Bride has not given up on me.
She will never hear the concept again.
Baby-Doll, we WILL stand victorious together. There is no doubt anymore. Our love is a certainty to me.
I dedicate myself to God and to your service.