Another Victory

It has been…..A GOOD DAY!!!!!
I want to throw a party! Maybe cook a few steaks, have a delicious brew and maybe even hire a midget so we can do that tossing thing I’ve heard about. I’m kidding of course… not really.

My Bride and I spent a good deal of POSITIVE, stress and controversy free time together. Today’s goal: No serious conversations. We didn’t quite make it, but we came pretty damn close.

We were buying her a new (for her) car this evening. It’s a kind of weird deal that I won’t really go into; very boring. This is where my problem, for tonight, began.

As we drove to our downtown appointment to pick up her car, we were forced to take a very familiar route. Our meeting took place about 1/4 mile from the porn theater I used to frequent. THE theater where I used to…you know. When I took the appropriate exit, my heart began pounding. My mind went into overdrive. I got dizzy. I was beginning to sweat. A lot. I was entering the I need to go there mode.

Everything in my mind said turn left and go to The Theater. My mind was saying “NO” but my brain was saying “GO! GO NOW!!!” Annnnd if My a ride wouldn’t have been there, I think the pressure may have been too much.

The place calls to me.
I grabbed My Bride’s hand and squeezed. Immediately she asked why I was suddenly squeezing her hand.
I told her what was up. I don’t know if it was because she’s (ahem) NOT getting sick, she was uncomfortable or just didn’t have anything to say. She became quiet.

“Tell yourself that it’s not going to happen. I’m even with you. It’s not happening.

Sure thing.
Last time I did that, I found myself “Taking Cate Of Business” at home by myself. I became worried that our nice day was about to die a terrible and sad death.

It didn’t. She squeezed back and talked me through it.
I made it!
If I can make it until morning, I’ll have another victory to talk about.

About MyJourney

I'm a 41 year old married father of 3. I am a sex addict. This blog is to document my progress, recovery and marital growth. Pornography is an evil creation. Let my experiences serve as a warning to all.
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2 Responses to Another Victory

  1. chipgruver says:

    Very good. You held out against the temptation. This the part of the recovery that is more of a marathon. It slowly gets easier from here.

    But it never gets easy.

    Is there a way to avoid driving by that theater? If there is, don’t go near it. You aren’t strong enough to keep exposing yourself to temptation like that.

    I’m proud of you.


    • I can avoid it if I’m willing to forgo travel to that portion of the largest metropolitan area in my area and the eastern half of my state. Hehe…

      We don’t travel that way very often. But anytime we do, it’s on my mind. Irrespective of who I’m with.

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